2nite im lost 4 words...not lost 4 tears tho, theyr flowing freely. i jus cant handle this pain. sunday was da first time iv felt real happiness since u left, i was at the chris brown concert, n his music is all dats got me thru dis year, that hour an a half hearing him sing in front of me jus took me to heaven, n everythin was ok again. wen he sung 'no air' my tears started flowing cuz dat song makes me think of u so much. but i smiled thru da tears cuz at dat point his voice took me 2 heaven n i was wit u again. afta it ended i cried. partly bcuz i love chris brown 2 bits n he'd gone (LOL) n partly bcuz i cudnt stop thinkin bout you...i guess its cuz i knew dis day was cumin up n it was on my mind alot. but anyway, the stuff that i wanna say to you, that i dont have words 4...u kno its in my heart, n u kno wat i want nd need 2 say 2 u. but anyway i miss you so much, n i love you forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx