hey ste, dunno wot to say....i came here cos i just needed some sanity!! and somehow you just seem to be the most sane person i could think of, maybe thats cos you were my friend....maybe cos tonight i can understand what drove you to that point. i know you see what happened today, an i know you know what im feelin.....i just dunno how to go on, frankly if it werent for ryan i know i wudnt be here anymore....ive just run out of strength, every time we take a step forward that prick comes along and knocks us all back three miles an i just cant be doin with it anymore.....im lost for ideas, im out of energy, im on a dark path to a place i shudnt go.....god help us all. see you real soon son x